Ms. Brightside

This blog entry is inspired by a former colleague and a forever friend, Kendis. I saw her friendster and immediately, I saw me and Kendis, talking inside the ladies' room after lunch, palpitating and letting out heavy sighs. But now, she's the real bomb. While I'm the dynamite. :-D

TIME FLIES! Pucha! I read one specific testimonial in my friendster. It said something about "Palpitating Sessions". Aaminin ko, isa akong kondesa ng palpitation a few years back (at minsan, kahit ngayon, nararamdaman ko pa rin sya).

Wala na yata ako inatupag noon kundi magpalpitate, makipaghingahan ng bitterness at magsabi ng "shrug it off, shrug it off". Tapos na rin sa wakas ang pagkukulong ko sa basement parking at tumulala at huminga nang malalim, magmura sa utak ko, i-recline ang carseat at mag-emote. There was also this instance when I opened my email and read the "unreadable". I literally walked out of the office, grabbed some pesto in Sucre, pressed the B2 button in the elevator, and once again, let out a heavy sigh in my car. Ang Corolla kong hindi power steering ang may alam ng lahat ng ito.

ANyway, ano ang point ng sinusulat ko? Inopen ko kase yung friendster ko eh. Para ko tuloy nabuksan ang chest of happy and sappy memories ko. Heto tuloy ako -- confused, excited at dire-diretso magtype sa keyboard, kahit alam kong medyo sablay sa sense ang blog entry na ito. Pero diba masarap namang basahin? Nararamdaman nyo ba sa binabasa nyo na dire-diretso ang takbo ng mga daliri ko sa keyboard at dire-diretso ding tumatakbo ang puny brain ko? Ako, I can feel that in other people's entry. At nag-eenjoy talaga ako. It seems as if, I am prying into their life and it also seems as if they're feeding with information na ala hot-off-the-grill ang concept!

Back on the subject, I opened my friendster account and read my testimonials. Abnoy nga pala ako. Frustrated singer nga pala ako. Masarap nga pala daw ako kausap. Bitter nga pala ako noon.

Grabe-ti.

Minsan, I tend to forget who I really am. Minsan, nawawala ako sa circulation and it saddens me but at the same time, natutuwa ako, kasi nakikita ko 'yung mga friends ko na nagmo-move on, nag-iimprove sa crafts nila. Wow. Nakakatuwa din na yung mga special sa yo, they say nice things about you, nice and totoo. Sarap. Nawawala kase ako sa sarili minsan, since day one, hindi ako firm. Para din akong chameleon, paiba iba ng style at color kung kelan mapagtripan. Kaya nga, nung nabasa ko ung mga testis ko sa friendster ko, parang narefresh ako. Bigla tuloy ako napaisip, naging boring ata ako lately. Ay ang laki ng problema ko.

To attain consistency in this entry, allow me to go back to this entry's plot. My palpitating sessions a few years back. Wheew, I thought I wouldn't be able to get rid of them. Parang nakakaloka talaga. Good thing, God is really good to me and helped me open my eyes and see the "potential sources of happy thoughts". After some time, the "Potential sources of happy thoughts" became true sources of happy thoughts. Yey to JC!

Ngayon, pinipilit ko na laging maging Ms. Brightside. Although lately bad vibes ako, pero napangalanan ko ng ang sarili ko na Ms. Brightside eh, so pipilitin kong maging MS. BRIGHTSIDE. :-)

... with the help of my PS of course. ;-)

Here by the way are my latest photos with the bitches of madison county... Binisita ako ng dalawang bruha dito sa isla at siyempre ang saya ko! Salamat Jan and Tel, I had a blast, ulitin natin ito.This time sama nyo na ang mga kids!






Ika nga ni PS, "Life is good kahit ano mangyari. 'Wag ka nagrereklamo na hindi masarap mabuhay!"

Ok fine.

Walang Kwenta. Pero Try Mo Rin Basahin.

Mga Kwentong Hayskul

Noong kabataan ko, noong ako’y nasa first year high school pa lang, my Christian Living teacher asked who among the whole class could consider her family an ideal family. Without thinking or at least coming up with convincing and heartwarming reasons, itinaas ko ang kamay ko. A friend smirked at me and blurted out, “Tingin mo ideal kayo?”

I looked at her, and I was kind of puzzled, she was a friend after all. Hindi ko binaba ang kamay ko, i just nodded when she asked me and secretly wished our teacher could see me so I could explain why.

But I never got my wish. I thought at that time, she realized she wasn’t interested with her question and decided to move on with the lesson.

Bigla ko lang naisip, kasi hanggang ngayon, klarong klaro pa rin sa isip ko ang mukha nung friend kong yun when she asked me that. Was she mocking me? Anyway, should there be a chance that someone would ask me if my family was a-ok, I’d still raise my hand and simply say, “My family’s the bomb!”

Labo noh? Basta.


Part Two

Due to excessive pagpapansin sa mga boys, I took the challenge of pushing my chair backwards, with me sitting on it. Whoever landed the farthest was to be “subconsciously crowned” as Ms. Popular. So I took the challenge together with the other “KSPs”.

It was so unfortunate for me that my chair was so stupid to trip and crash. I guess you can now tell what happened next to my extreme pagpapansin. Kasama akong natumba ng silya, my school skirt up to my face, showing off my chicken legs and worst, my baby boomers.

Napansin nga naman ako. Lovely.

Trivia Naman.

My sibs and I didn’t own story books when we were growing up. We were Batibot kids. We were also the “Saturday-Cartoons-Day” Kids. That’s how we grew up.

But there’s one very important teacher in my childhood life. LIWAYWAY, the komiks. Hindi pa man ako pumapasok sa school, marunong na agad ako magbasa.

At bakit?

Dahil sa LIWAYWAY, dahil sa “Gorgo”, “Agua Bendita” at “Matias Matiisin”.

Thank you Liwayway for making my reading life easier.

Idagdag pa natin ang Italian prayer na kinabisa ko sa bible na nakita ko sa gamit ng mommy ko nung bata pa ako. Until now, I can still pray that Italian prayer, and until now, I still don’t know what it means. I love foreign language. Sana matuto ako minsan.

Trivia Lang naman.

On American Idol.

I am rooting for Paris and my Chris. They’re oh-some.

On Personal Life.

The best pa rin. Who could ask for anything more? 

On CAREER.

Screaming B-U-S-Y.

Phoenix

Catch PHOENIX here real soon.

Missing you all.