Letter to the void...
It's December tomorrow already. I love how time plays tricks on us. When we don't want things to end, we'd wish time would slow down a bit, or freeze the moment even. When we're excited about something, looking forward to the most exciting thing, we'd wish we can fast forward time and bring us to "there". We're funny, we're funny people.
Universe, together with the most perfect time, has given me a beautiful chance. I thought I would never have something like it, but I guess, God intervened, helped the Universe to pinch me and make my head turn.
There would be times when you don't want to slow down and instead settle for what you have -- settled for something that's unlikely to be truly happy. I almost did. But, like I said, Universe would always come to the rescue and give you another chance. However, it would be all up to you if you would give chance a chance.
Yes, time does play tricks on me and on you. We go crazy over time. But without it, I don't think we can have these beautiful chances.
I thank chance for bumping into me... It's really one of the few exciting Janice experiences. Me love it a lot :)
It's about time, say yes to whim. :)
Hi Blog,
I celebrated my 29th birthday twenty-two days ago. I was re-reading my previous posts and I was all amazed then at turning twenty-five!
Anyway, I won't go wasting my precious internet hours babbling about how time flies so fast. I think I have been reciting this like a mantra already. However, may I add here that turning a year older gives me one good realization too.
I think I have outgrown a few things.
Disclaimer: Don't go looking for deep realizations here, most of the things I have outgrown are shallow and very personal! hehehe!
"Few things" Number 1. I don't feel like wearing my favorite brands of clothes anymore. Nor do I ever enter their shops and fit and pose and buy! I suddenly realize I have lots of those already, and I would love to be in clothes that are more.... well.. "womanly". Like what my sister said, "Me too, those clothes are for college girls". I guess gone are the days when friends and I drool over those cute, flimsy, girly outfits and wish we have high paying jobs to buy them all! :)
In Relation to "Few Things" Number 1,
I am now near to being an extremely devout shopper of the department stores! :) Not only they are more affordable, they have more choices too and they go on sale most of the time!!! Me go crazy!
"Few Things" Number 2. I am seven or ten years older than most of the people I am working with. Are they thinking the way I was thinking back then? "Ang tanda ng 29!" Heheheh! :)
"Few Things" Number 3. Well, I've realized this a long time already. But, let me say this again and again, over and over. I've realized, you wouldnt be two hundred percent happy if not for the love from your fiance, from your family and from your sinister friends. Well, you should be happy on your own, in your own very personal style, but to celebrate that happiness and double it, you gotta have "them" and "him" around. That's the beauty of everything in this world. So call yourself lucky and happy if you have love from those people :)
"Few Things" Number 4. I love of Jo-Insung from the now defunct korean series, "Non-stop". He's seen on so many movies and "koreanovelas" too. There are a LOT of korean heartthrobs now. They're from boybands with so many members you can hardly remember their faces! But for me, si Jo-Insung pa rin ang pinakaguapo sa kanilang lahat! :) (peace sign insert here!)
"Few Things" Number 5. I now have a new love flavor for cakes, "strawberry". Wait for me strawberry shortcake :)
O diba, these things are very shallow. Well, they're me :)
There are a lot of books to be read, some of the pages folded, some turning yellow already.
There are movies to be watched, bought them from my panic buying behaviour, but most of them lie untouched on my shelf.
Just two of the few things I enjoy doing. And yes, the past days, and weeks have been so hectic, it's unusual to see someone in this house bum around. :)
But. I don't really mind. The great thing about my work is I love it. I do get tired from it and I will always get tired, but I don't really mind. I complain yes, but i complain about everything.
You see, when you really really love something, no matter how difficult, complicated it can be, it'd always be like eating your favorite cookie :) (with hot boiling water nga lang, hehe, corny!)
So there... I hope to have tea with you movies and books soon.
Happy September everybody. Geezbuzz, time does fly fast! :)
It isn't healthy to feed yourself on "what-might-have-beens" -- the regrets and guilty feelings from the past.
Because they will drag you down and you won't be able to go anywhere.
Nothing is extra more important than today. Because today gives you all the chances in this world to make your future beautiful :)
I think I should tell this to myself too. Heheh. I think I should really try to forgive. As Nelson Mandela said on the movie, "Invictus", "Forgiveness liberates the soul". So I should really try.
Not that my soul is so depressed and trapped, but from time to time, there are a few snippets of that past that I don't like seeing in my head. It's probably because I felt paralyzed before -- not brave enough to see the real truth; not wise enough to realize; but blind enough to tolerate it and convince myself that 'that' is happiness.
It was a great gift from the Almighty to wake me up and feed my guts with courage then. But this time, I should be brave to just let the black past go. No need to state out the reasons, no need to relive them, no need to broadcast them either.
"There is no point of going back especially when you didn't leave anything behind."
IN my heart, I know I should just shake it off and be the supreme queen that I have always been. I owe it to myself :)
Things happen in our lives because of so many so many reasons. Sometimes, we don't see them right away; sometimes it would take a whole revolution of the earth; or sometimes, the reasons have always been there -- we just don't see them yet.
So for those ancient regrets and long overdue guilty feelings you have, i think it's about time to just let them be. THere's nothing more you can do about them after all.
Let's smile, the world loves us :)
Receiving good news is like having to eat your long overdue craving.
I just heard last night that one of my super best friends is getting married next year.
Coming from a not so nice relationship in the past, the good news makes me realize that this universe aligns with you, it aligns with whatever dream you might have, and when it does, there's nothing else you can do but forget about the past and be sincerely happy about the present and the future.
Hope floats :)
How come I can't seem to delete / upload / edit my photo albums here on Multiply?
I would love to extract from my several sets some shots that should be disposed of a long long time ago.
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Sometimes, I cannot help but think how poor my decision-making skill is -- going for something or someone that's absolutely way out of line. And convincing myself that THAT is happiness.
But,
I realized,
To be happy you need not convince yourself to be one. You just are happy. You don't prepare reasons, nor perfect the way of speaking them out loud.
And also sometimes, I cannot help but say my Thank you prayer to the real Supreme Being for making me realize that very simple fact.
:-) Let's gather up the good news!
"Noong bago pa lang ako, si Mang Danny ang nagturo sa akin mag assemble ng antenna. Gagayahin ko siya sa kanyang katapatan." -- Iyok, working for VPR for 18 years.
Lunch time, a partial of the VPR family celebrated a thanksgiving / despedida / retirement of our oldest employee-- Mang Danny.
After 25 happy years of dedication, loyalty and service, Mang Danny would retire on July 25.
My eldest sister Ate Jo was only 6 when Mang Danny started working for us. And Ate jo now is 32. Hehehe. Nakakatuwa ano. He saw the four of us grow up :)
It was a very emotional short program. I would like to thank the Lord for letting Mang Danny work for us. He is one of the few people my family trusts. He may not have generated revenues for the stores, but at least he never sold his soul to the "devil".
:D
A famous quote goes something like, "Live in the present, not in the past nor in the future".
Um...
We talk about our future most of the time. We dream about it. And yes, we hope it's the future already. We are giddy excited! The future would be our realtime. We count days like how kids do when they wait for Christmas morning!
So are we living in the future? Don't we practice what Bo Sanchez once said, "Live in your 'Now'"?
I think we are the exception to the rule. hehe. We may be on our future dreamboat now, but every single day, we embrace what the day has to offer for us.
We dare say, "bring it on!" or "let's go!" to the most difficult hours at work! We live and breathe the new day. We ask, "How's your day so far?" and from there, we learn and discover new things about our lives and about each other.
Plus, it's the new day that makes us closer to the dream. :D
Yes, it's the future that we focus on. It's like saving up for the future or making a business plan for 2011! Hihi!
So check, we live in the present! (but with a super minute, almost-impossible-to-see, tick on future, hehe!)
Good night p e o p l e ! :)
It's a good good feeling to get to talk to you after some brawling hours at work. And yes, we have been online for the past Eighteen months now.
Goozbuzz!
I think Lee won not only because of his vocal prowess, but he also won and captivated the hearts of many by his sheer charm and his sincere stares...
(meltinggg....)
I hope he'd sell millions and millions of records!
Mother's Day.
One Mother's Day, we went to hear mass at the Cathedral. In front of us was a young mother. With her was her two sons. I suppose they're 4 and 2. They were playing and they were noisy and distracting. The mother was, well, she was texting while the priest was reading a letter from the Bishop.
WHen the mother finally noticed that her kids were more than giggling, she hit them both with her bare hands! She didnt hit them once, maybe more than five times! The mother's face was mad, her lips pursed, and her eyes were fierce! This young mother was a lunatic! She hit them hard! She even grabbed the little one by his neck and the boy choked!
Even before the mass ended, they stood up and left the church. I am quite certain there was a part two at their home.
Next Scene:
Still inside the Cathedral, a mother of three walked inside and sat two pews in front of us. She was a mother of 2 young girls and a baby boy. She was carrying the baby boy, a special baby boy. His legs were thin, his eyes deep. The mother carried him all throughout the Mass with occasional kisses on his forehead. When the priest told everybody to say "Peace be with you", the mother kissed her son and asked her little girls to do the same and they did happily...
Last Scene:
This one didnt happen inside the Cathedral. This mother was working as a manager at a local retail shop. She was at the top of her game. She always had many clients and all her customers loved her. The management was proud of her. THis mother was their "ace". But behind the management's back, she was not remitting all the sales. She was stealing. Her husband was fired from work due to stealing. They needed the money to replace what her husband stole. She was a mother of three very young girls. THe management had to let her go but she had to pay what she had stolen. How can her girls survive now?
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All different angles of a mother. All these a mother can do for so many reasons. Hopefully, love is one of them.
It's never too late...
Go chase your dreams!
There may be regrets,
a little sadness in the past,
B U T !
every single day is a chance to
prove a point,
and every single day is a
huge chance
to change how your world revolves.
It's time to plant a new seed,
water it, and watch it grow a new leaf..
You smile at the world,
everything is going to be
alright.
"theres a radio station i set the radio to when i work overtime. in that empty place where i work alone, it drowns the silence, it makes time go faster, and shortens the distance from where i stand and where youre just about to rise."
-- RCM
