Mars

This afternoon, before we closed, I saw that the sky was sort of pink orange...

Unusual, but definitely interesting and beautiful. It was bright pink with shades of dark orange, and then below it were the crazy, curly clouds...

I gazed at it for a while and thought, "This must be the work of the Sun beginning to set".

But really, the thought was, "The Sun must be in a swinggy mood today."

After all, everybody in Ubas St. is in their very festive mood.

The Sun might have felt it too, right?

(Too bad, i ddnt have my camera with me at work)

The Colorful Tree That Lights Up At Night

Whilst the darkness fills up my once blue sky,

you light up just like that;

and throw beautiful colors to the black earth.

You uplift the worn-out-for-the-day twirlie somehow.

jane doe

I wish to thank RJ of RJTV.

When I went out of my room this morning, I saw Jane from the other room. Her door was slightly ajar and I saw her looking intently on the TV screen. I could only see Jane's side view but I noticed a smile on her face. I could see her eyes getting chinky again from smiling. So I had to get a little closer.

And voila, Jane was watching Danny Osmond and Tom Jones on RJ TV! So that's why she was smiling. The song may have reminded her of her bagets days or even her colegiala days. I thought, "Wow, in a few years, when i'd have my own kids, I'd be like Jane also, secretly smiling and stealing some alone time."

It was pleasant to see Jane that way. Well, Jane is a bubbly lady, but most of the time, you'd see Jane busy with work and with her family. So really, having some quality time alone is something I rarely see Jane does.

And this is exactly why I want to thank RJ of RJTV.

I love seeing my mom super relaxed and just having some fine time.

=)

I Hope Always

Sometimes, I'd like to think it's just there, right across the street. And whenever you need and want it, you'd just walk over there; knock on its door, read a magazine on the patio while drinking lemonade; and well, just gaze at the bright blue sky and drink some more.

Sometimes, it's nice to think that way.

I guess so.

The truth is I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart, and I never really got it back.

from Sweet Home Alabama.

There.

Whenever I read your letter, I feel so light
and happy and dreamy again, completely forgetting
that I am, well, not in my "swing out sister" mode...

However, after reading it, reality will sink in,
as if it punched me in my stomach,
making me throw up the "happy swing out sister" mode I felt moments ago.

The letter is from the past.
It won't ever come back.
It won't ever come true.

He said,

"I guess the ground can shift beneath your feet, sometimes your footing slips, you stumble and sometimes, you grab what is closest to you and hold on to that as tight as you can..."
- K.A.

You are holding on to that for too long now. Do you wish to loosen your grasp anytime soon?

HBD!

22... 23.... 24.... 25... 26..... 27!

Great oddballs.

Time does fly fast. But hoh noh, there is absolulely no room here for regrets, just high dosages of happy pills.

Ika nga ni Banana, "You should be dancing, cartwheels all around. You're 27 and still alive!" Hahahah.

I guess that's what will I be doing tonight! DANCE and DRINK and CELEBRATE!

Happy Birthday Janice M. Marasigan!!!

Bente Siete ka na!!! Let's put our hopes up this year!!!!! And I promise to do better!

Let's just go go go, love, love, love, live, live, live!!!!

Monologue Part I dont know

Bakit ba ganon? Kahit anong gawin mong paraan para makalimutan ang isang bagay, hinding hindi mo pa rin iyon magawa. Ilang beses ka na nangako, ilang beses ka na sumumpa na hindi mo na ito pag-uukulan ng pansin, pero bakit ganyan ka pa rin?

Ano pa ang hinihintay mo? Huwag mong pilitin ang ayaw, huwag mong pilitin ang mundo na umikot para sa'yo lang.

Kailan ka ba makakalimot? Kailan ka makakapagbago?

Motto of the season

Been a while...

Ang sabe nung pari nung linggo:

"Magtiyaga sa kasalukuyan, para maging masaya sa kinabukasan..."

Sige, sige, 'yan mismo ang gagawin ko Father, kahit mahirap, pero dahil malaki ang pananampalataya ko na may magandang future para sa aken, magtyatyaga muna ako ngayon.

Ano ba naman ang kaunting bitterness kung ang kapalit naman ay 'sangkatutak na happy pills?

Parallel Parking

I hardly parallel park. It’s intense, it’s crazy, it’s tricky.

Parallel parking requires approximation, which has to be near exact and near perfect -- making it seem like that space is totally meant for your car; like you own that space and that space belongs to you, and to you alone.

So this is why I hardly parallel park.

I barely make a space my own. In addition to this, I find it difficult to recall a time when a certain space is perfect and just right for me.

I sometimes go round and round the streets, wasting my gas, desperately searching for a little space that’s not challenging – a space that won’t demand much from my poor approximation skills.

I get lucky sometimes; I occasionally spot a space nice enough. However, as much as I want to make this space my own, some things get in the way -- things that are difficult to deal with and apparently menacing.

I don’t like that. I need a space that’s just right; that no matter how inexperienced I am in terms of parallel parking, that space still belongs to me and to me alone.

And this is why I hardly parallel park.

I cannot find my own perfect parking space.

jan and janice talking

While looking for a place to eat, Janice spotted some medical students in their usual all-white uniform.

“Jan, ano kaya kung mag-doctor ako?”

“O eh di siguradong macre-credit lahat ng subjects naten nung college!”

Jan and Janice took up Communication Arts and Advertising in MC six years ago. The only science subject they had was Biology, and it was only a minor subject.

Hmmm, should Janice pursue her dream of becoming a doctor, it would take her additional 8 to 10 years in school.

So Janice decided to drop the subject. She couldn’t and wouldn’t study that long again.

It’s just so long for her.

So what else could Jan and Janice do in their idle time? They don’t know yet.

They never liked idle time, especially Jan.

Idle time is for young adults.

360 Degrees

When you think all the things you want from this world are already within reach, think again.

There would be times when your supposed big leap would turn out to be a giant back step; Or when you thought you were right there, stepping on top of your big dream cloud, you'd suddenly feel a slow churn climbing up from the soles of your feet to the core of your heart; after a while, you would feel nauseated and would decide to come down from your dreamboat.

Or a very basic example like, one night, you prepared the clothes you would wear for work the next day, but morning came and then you decided to pick out a completely different wardrobe.

When your mind is set to doing something; when you are so focused on what you need to achieve and who you want to become; or when you believe that all certain things are right and perfect for you, why does, without any disclaimer at all, a feeling of doubt cross your little perfect world and disrupt you, one way or another?

Why the sudden revolution? Why the abrupt endings or the unexpected actions and super impulsive decisions? Why do they happen? Did we just wake up and find out that this was not healthy anymore? How can we ever cope up? And how can we know that this whole reinvention is best for us?

As for me, the feeling will either leave you with a big hole in your chest, making you so empty and sullen for disappointing yourself or the other people; or give you a taste of peace for freeing yourself from the trap you hardly knew you were in.

I learned that changes are bound to happen. It just depends on us; on how we are going to entertain or not entertain them. They bump into you because you may need more in your life, you may need growth. You may need to breathe a newer, fresher air.

We come down from our dreamboats from time to time. It’s not bad. It’s normal.

We change our minds. We change our lives. We change ourselves.

Guess no one stays the same after all.

END!

Pinoy Titans

This evening, I got my first dose of happy cells. Finally.

And it darn felt so good!

Until now, I am still high on happy hormones. As happiness is a bit scarce lately, what happened tonight was relieving and definitely included in my a-list of happy thoughts.

So what happened?

Team VPR won the first basketball game tonight. And I am so proud of my boys! Good thing I brought my red tambourine and my very promising red and yellow pom-poms. I think i yelled my lungs out during the game together with the girls. But who cares? This is my first hooray after the sad event and I had so much fun.

First hoorays don't happen to most people, maybe they do, but it can hardly be considered as a first hooray. I am glad it did to me and it was real. It felt beautiful. I so wish for another hooray. Maybe... if I can feed myself with so many hoorays, the other stuff may just dissolve and leave me feeling light again. This lightness that I always associated myself too before. Because now, I am so aging with gloominess. I think I sometimes drag myself to something. There is no more the willingness and the energy to do it. I don' t like that. That is why when I watched the game tonight, I had a feeling of lightness once again. It may be because my team won, but more importantly, I experienced a change. No more thinkathon series after work. No TV to entertain you on a boring friday night. But a few hours of cheering for my team... and cheering for myself I guess - for surviving, for staying sane and strong.

It was heavenly. Great balls.

Pumarada na ang Kuchero.

when I don't think it's fair,
when I hardly feel anything.
when I became so strange
when I became so stupid.
when I just cannot think.

Cocoy is Here

I wonder how Baby Cocoy can transform our super busy and chaotic household into a warm and peaceful home....

I very much look forward to it. :D

Not Jason Castro!

I would be very heartbroken if Jason would leave American Idol tomorrow night. But I am getting ready.

Why was he so stupid to forget the lyrics of the song? And why did he choose that song in the first place? It had no recall, no appeal at all.

But still, I would love him to be in the Final Three..

Magmimiracle kaya?

Not Jason Castro!

I would be so heartbroken if Jason Castro would leave American Idol tomorrow night.

Why was he so stupid to forget the lyrics of the song? And why did he choose that song in the first place? It had no recall, no appeal at all. Ischupid men.

April Sun

April is almost over,
My bright blue sky,
My sunshine,
My happy rays of the sun!

Rain is starting to pour every night.I never like the rainy season.
It's gloomy. Just sad.

I dreamed of summer as my happy thought.
I dreamed of April as my sole reinforcement.

But the cold wind of May,
and the strangeness of June,
They approach me fast and
cunning.

I want the Sun to embrace me with warmth,
to kiss my nose and say,
"I won't hide beneath the clouds".

I want the Sun to burn it -
until it turns into ash...
So I can blow it away.

So even if May and June come,
I will be alright.

Masaya Ba?

Paano mo malalaman kung tama ang naging desisyon mo?
Kailangan bang maging magaan ang pakiramdam pagkatapos mo ito
mapagdesisyunan?
Paano kung sa una magaan ito sa pakiramdam?
Pero sa kalaunan naman ay magiging pabigat na rin ito?
Ibig sabihin ba noon ay hindi tama ang iyong desisyon?
Paano mo malalaman kung tama ang naging desisyon mo?
O malalaman mo pa ba kung ito ay tama o mali?
Paano nga ba?
Paano ka pipili?
Ano ang gagawin mo?

I Hate To Say, "I Told U So.."

What's wrong with Brooke White?

Did she just stop the orchestra and ask to start all over again? Is American Idol just a mere songfest?

What's wrong with Brooke White? I so hate, "I told you so." (Please refer to my previous entry). And what's with the pa-cute eyes while singing? I don't think you can fool the audience no more.

On the other side of the AI news, I think David Cook really is the one to beat (sadly). He's way better that Archuleta. I am not a big fan of Cook. I don't like his humongous skull although his voice is really powerful and he's very very original.

I hope Jason Castro stays for another week. (maisingit lang.)

Should Have Been Brooke.

I don't know.

But I just think Brooke White should have been the one to leave AI season 7 instead of Kristy Lee Cook (yep, KCL left AI tonight). Brooke is boring for me. I don't recall watching her sing from start to finish. Pour moi, she's got to go too. At least with Kristy, you see how she exerts effort when she sings; how determined she is to stay longer. I think she's even getting better. But well..

I just hope it will be Brooke next week.

AI's Best Episode.

The episode tonight (Mariah Carey Night) of American Idol was I think the best episode they ever had.

Everybody was great.

Or maybe it was because Mariah had so many beautiful songs, all loaded with soaring emotions.. -- that's why they were able to come up with winning performances. But nevertheless, the remaining 7 finalists were all amazing. Even Kristy Lee Cook sounded phenomenal.

However, it was David Cook who stole the show. As much as I don't like David Cook, he's truly a great performer, original and he can sing very well.

I wonder who's gonna go home tomorrow night.

I just hope it would not be Jason Castro. I can't help but smile when I watch him.

Tambak Na Naman ang Labada

Kaninang hapon, sa oras ng aking lunch break,
Nagmaganda ako.

Ginamit ko ang lumang spray net ng nanay ko.
Inispray ko 'to sa aking bagong gupit na buhok,
at saka ko nilagyan ng swarovski headband ang
ulo ko.

Ang ganda.

Nagkaroon ng volume ang buhok ko,
Tumambok sya sa taas at para akong bumalik
sa 60's.

Hindi doon natapos ang pagmamaganda ko.
Ginamit ko pa ang aking curl lash at
mascara. Ang saya ko. Kulang na lang mapulang
lipstick!

Tambak kasi ang labada
sa trabaho
at sa bahay.

Nakakapanglambot na ng laman
minsan.

Kaya, for a change,
kahit kailangan ko na bumalik
sa salt mines,
ayun, nagmaganda muna ako,

at nakipag-QT sa sarili.

MJ!

Ang mga gwapo ay hindi dapat tinatanggal sa American Idol!

Bakit nyo tinanggal si Michael Johns???

New Home

This summer is, I guess, the greatest time for new beginnings.
(whatever that means.)
I have a new home in Multiply.
Add me.
My ID is swingjanice.multiply.com.
See you there.
I have so many stories to tell, they're a
bit sad, but (sigh) oh well.
I will let you know soon.
Take care now.

Another Reason to Scream Yahoo!

This summer, I promise to read more books. I am done with New Moon by Stephenie Meyer. It wasn't that great as I thought it would be, maybe because I am very much against with Belle wanting to be a vampire. But I havent read Twilight yet, the first of the three books, so maybe I am missing out on some important details...

Although I gotta admit, New Moon's got some winner quotable quotes. You really can feel the lines while you're reading them...

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I will be starting on my next book, The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. I have high expectations.

Movie pala 'to. :D

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Have a happy summer guys!

I Told You So

Happy thoughts and happy moments are slowly filling up some boring spaces in my life. :-) Great balls.





Swingjanice with Swing Sister! After four grueling years in San Beda College of Law, Ate Je made it!!! Conchachulashens!

more pictures at my flickr.

Pretty Please

I am looking forward to happy thoughts and happy moments this summer...
I am keeping my fingers crossed.

Ramielle

Ramielle just doesn't make the cut...

She's got no a-teeet-tud, no facial expression, no grooves, no style, no gestures, no confidence
... She just stands there, sings and stares blankly at the camera from time to time.

I really hope she'd improve...

(But what I really hope is for Jason Castro to win!)

Thinkathon 2008

I am once again thinking about boxing. Think lang ha? :D

New Moon

I am currently consuming New Moon by Stephenie Meyer...

The following lines are just simply hard to forget and digest. Read on...

[Bella broken hearted as Edward left her...]

"I waited for the numbness to return, or the pain. Because the pain must be coming. I'd broken my personal rules. Instead of shying away from the memories, I'd walked forward and greeted them. I'd heard his voice so clearly in my head. That was going to cost me, I was sure of it."

"As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worried - late in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defenses - that it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve, and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his cool skin, or the texture of his voice. I could not think of them, but i must remember them..."

Those perfect words. Great balls.

Meeeshell, my belle

*** Kristy Lee Cook should leave American Idol NOW. She is like a long overdue book, or an unsettled phone bill with interest! Come on!

*** My Jason Castro, I think, should sing more upbeat songs. He's always in the safe mode. I wanna see him dance a bit or sing a bit faster... Hayy.

I can't wait for the results tomorrow!

Just a little cherva over the weekend

I look stupid. :D
I tried biking last Sunday with PS. It was exhausting, much more exhausting and dangerous than football. But I'd definitely try again next week. ;)
I absolutely do not like the idea of cellulites on my chicken legs.

I wonder how and why

On Janina San Miguel winning the Bb. Pilipinas World...

Personally, I think it's okay if she can't speak English fluently... Most of the beauty candidates in international beauty pageants cannot speak English as well. As most of us know, they have interpreters during the question and answer portion. When you are fluent in English, it does not necessarily mean you are smart or above the rest already...

However... when you cannot speak English fluently and cannot also even answer the question in Filipino, I think that's a big, major problem. Bb. Pilipinas Host, Paolo Bediones, had already told her that's it's ok to answer in Filipino, but hoh boy, she went on and made a complete mess.

So how did she bag the Bb. Pilipinas World title? I really do not know.

I Smile

I smile,
I look at you,
and then I flash my big smile again.
I think about you,
I smile.
I am dreamy,
I am in love.
I just love to look at you.
So I can smile again
and think about you
and be dreamy again,
and be in love again.
:-)

Still Jason Castro

Yahoo, Jason Castro is in! I really hope he won't get eliminated soon. I love how he effortlessly sings and how he looks at the camera. It's like... he's looking at me... Chosz. I just love the guy. ;)

I miss Summer

Where's summer?

It is still rainy and windy and cold. I want some sun please.

Purefoods vs Sta Lucia

I am no fan of PBA. I am not even familiar with the Pinoy basketball players now. However, back in the days, I used to love Vergel Meneses and Allan Caidic. I grew out of it I think.

But while Ebu's watching the final battle between P and SL, I found myself stealing some glimpses on our TV set - just checking who's leading...

You see, I don't like defeats, especially when I so adore the contestants or the players or even in movies where the lead stars die. I feel like I have been cheated and I must admit, there are times that I feel I am in a denial period. haha. Grabe nga naman ako maapektuhan. Kaya nga ba nung natalo si Marc and Rov sa Amazing race, pucha, kulang na lang magbigti ata ako... At lalo na nung nagpakamatay si Will Smith sa I am Legend, lechugas, nakakairita talaga. I was still sitting and waiting if the director decided to make his death a dream. But of course, I was wrong.

And this is why I don't watch basketball games anymore. I easily get dissapointed when someone losses and it's too sad to just shrug it off. I don't want my "bidas" to lose. I want them victorious. Because if they are victorious, I feel victorious too and I will think about it until I cannot anymore remember the smallest details! :)

Re: Purefoods and Sta Lucia game, well, I go for James Yap's team. Just because he is the only one I know...

I gotta admit that...

I left my heart in Palawan.
One week has already passed and I am still on vacation mode.

Click me for more chever photo ops!

Jason Castro

Although he isn't really the best in American Idol, I want Jason Castro to win or at least make it to the final five or three perhaps or final twelve even.
I like his voice, it's smooth, clean, just fantastic...

Go Jason Castro!

To those who can't remember how he looks like, he's the one with dreadlocks.

myyyy heroooo....

ye boy...
Originally uploaded by swingjanice

In time for the summer season, I am currently producing a new television commercial for our shop.

The picture posted is the main star. Meet "Myyyyy Herooohhh"... :D

We had our first day of shooting this morning. Everything went well except for some minor mishaps... But I hope everything will turn out ok. ;-)

Once it's done, I will be uploading the video here. Hehe.

I won't watch replays anymore

I don't wanna give details but oh boy, Marc and Rov finished third in the recently concluded, Amazing Race Asia 2...

I was heartbroken...

Just Chillaxin'

there I go
Originally uploaded by swingjanice

A while ago, I was talking to one of my best pals, tabs.
this is for you girl, i cannot wait to see you this holy week.
let's have a fab time!
we have so many palpitation sessions missed,
i demand some quality time!

charing. :D

revamp is nakakatamad

I am thinking of revamping my blog for chinese new year's sake.
But I am lazy to do that.
Ano kaya?

"holey" @!#

Friday wasn't a great day. It started off ok,
but as it went on, it just felt odd and
sad and morbid all at the same time. It was,
well, empty - like a big hole in your chest.
Do you ever feel that? Out of nowhere, the strange
feeling just pops out, destroys you and
crushes you and drains out all your energy.
Anyway. Friday night came, and everything became
worse. It was so humid and so quiet that you almost
felt beaten. You tossed and turned, you turned on the
tv and too sad to find out there was nothing happy
on tv. You felt like crying, but there were no tears,
you started thinking why you were feeling that way,
but your mind wouldnt just work and was just blurred.
You thought hard, you closed your eyes and you thought
even harder. You are adorned with almost
everything but why? Why couldnt you sleep? Why do you feel
like an empty can? But all you got was the soft
hush of your air conditioning system. You let out a sigh,
closed your eyes, and talked to the high heavens.
Take this away from me. I know I am not a good person,
but at least please let me sleep tonight...
I am sad and I think I still deserve some good night sleep...

Yo Men, Wazap?

Hey I got some new photos on flickr. Check them out when you have time.

Click!

Sa Bayan

Saturday afternoon after work --
Namasyal kami ng mga kapatid ko sa bayan
(center of commerce in the island).
Masarap mamasyal sa bayan.
Madaming naglalakad na mga tao,
magkakakilala man
o mga galing sa malalayong parte ng isla.
May mga Koreano rin, isang batalyon! Mga nagsisipag-aral
ng Ingles.

Kaya masarap mamasyal sa bayan.
Drive drive ka lang,
Patingin-tingin.
Magaan ang feeling.
Masasaya
kasi ang mga tao na nasa bayan.
May mga namimili ng pagkain at grocery,
pataba sa mga tanim sa bukid,
pagkain at bitamina ng alagang baboy at manok,
May nagliligawan sa fast food,
May mga bagets na tumitingin ng
mga latest na cellphones,
May mga balikbayan na binibili ang lahat
ng laman ng tindahan, at kasama ang 'sangkaterbang
kamag-anak
May mga 'kano rin sa bayan!
At may mga 'kanong pastor din na nakaneck tie
habang nagpapalipas ng oras sa bilyaran.

Masarap talaga mamasyal sa bayan.
Ang daming nakikita. Ang sasaya pa.
Magaan sa puso.

Kaya gusto ko lagi namamasyal
sa bayan.

:-)

Got A New Cherva.

I recently purchased a Sony Cybershot Camera. It's a big buy especially for someone like me who's kind of scared spending big for a hobby.

But I am very much loving my new camera. It's HD and it has so many features that my old Lumix doesn't have. I love the speed shooting feature because it makes me capture super real shots! There are also some technical features but I am no professional photographer so I can hardly understand them ( apertures, etc. :D).

This will really make me busy in my spare time. I have no extra curricular activity and I am kind of bored with my daily routine, so this one will truly perk me up!

(though I gotta admit, it's a bit harsh on my pocket).

I have taken some photos. I am so loving the picture quality. Look oh!


All wrinkled up.


I love the way the camera creates texture making the picture more alive. Every detail clear.


Jollibee is for bagets.


SpongeBob upclose.

There are still so many techniques and features buried inside this little piece of machinery and I have the entire night to at least scratch its surface I think.

;-)

Earn Moolah, Blogsvertise!

Yep, I heard about this site. Time for me to earn some moolah with my non-consistent personal opinions. I just registered and I hope I will be able to write for them.

How does this work? Well you gotta go to their site, register and when they have reviewed your registration, you might be lucky and receive an assignment from them. You may now write about this assignment and you may also get paid! righteous...

My dear friends, this is the beauty of online advertising. (I just wanna add, online advertising was our thesis in Miriam).

Let's cross our fingers guys! Try it too!

On Amazing Race

Marc and Rovilson in Amazing Race are truly amazing!

It's so fun watching them, they're very competitive and athletic. Go Go Go!

I want them to win! I hope they win!

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Should Amazing Race Asia invite me (naks) to join their race, I would definitely pair up with PS. Not because he's my SO, and SOs are supposed to be together all the time, but because PS is fast, street smart and athletic. He can lead and we can win. Ching. :D

Or, I can also pair up with Banana. She may be timid at times but oh come on, her mental skills can really outlast someone else's physical skills! She's logical and she's very good in directions (I think). :D

However, a bigger question lies...

Would they want to pair up with someone LIKE ME?

All I know is to run fast (like Forrest).

I cannot even swim.

Labadami

My own version of Pila-Balde.
Although it's back aching and slightly hurting my hands,
doing my own laundry is one of the few things
I look forward to doing.
I love the smell of my detergent,
and I love to rinse my clothes inside
a huge banyera.
Heehee!

Hello Two Thousand and Eight!

Weeeh!!!

A brand new year? Time really does fly fast... I havent even accomplished yet the few things I planned last year. I have so many pending activities!

However, I don't feel like making a pact with myself. I am really tired of New Year's Resolutions. (bitter?) So there, in my own time maybe. :)

For now, I will just say hello to Two Thousand and Eight!